Sunday, September 27, 2009

Did that really happen?

So as my 22nd birthday approached, happened, and disappeared like writing in the sand I have done a little reflecting of events in my life...

First off I have to remind myself every day that I am 22 years old. I like the number so I hope its a good year. When I was about 6 years old I went to my cousin's wedding, he was 22 when he got married and I thought that was so old so I said that sounds like a good age to get married. Little did I know how not so old it is and 99% it won't be happening this year.

I often have to remind myself that I have graduated college, like seriously...I have a degree? I suppose my daily events aren't a very good reminder of this accomplishment.

Little things remind me of my days in Chile. Just certain songs, or my ability to carry on full conversations in Spanish, or the great memories I have with the amazing friends I made there who I miss dearly. But again, often I have to be like, seriously...I lived in Chile for 5 months? I got a map for my birthday and put it up on my wall pronto because I just love to look at the map of the world and see all the different places I have been or want to go. I looked at Punta Arenas where I went backpacking in Patagonia and I was like "oh my God, I was so close to Antartica!"


Anyways, So little update on my life:

The International Festival is this coming weekend!!! I hope everything goes well. In case you didn't know, I am interning with them and helping with all the planning. Its like my ideal job except I am not getting paid. I should be at the festival the whole weekend so if you go there you should definitely find me! I have no idea where I will be but should have my cell on me.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Taking Risks

So my life is happening whether I like it or not, whether I am fully participating or not. So I have realized I need to make my life happen the way I want it to. I can't just wait around for something to happen. I need to take risks, do things that scare me, take me out of my comfort zone. This way I will experience life and get to know myself more and more each day.

I am somewhat lacking the motivation and ideas of what types of risks to take. So I ask you, what do you suggest I do? Any ideas to make my life more interesting and fun? Keep in mind I am on a small budget and need to plan for any large scale adventure since my "three jobs" keep me occupied daily.

Hope we can share a risk together ;-)

Sunday, September 6, 2009

Addendum

Well I may have spoken too soon in that last post. I now have learned that staying at home with my parents is only so relaxing and blissful for the first 48 hours. After that period of time my parents are reminded of my annoying habits and laziness that occurs when I have nothing to do. I was asked to help out while I am home since they are not my servants. Now I understand this of course but I wanted to take advantage of their kindness as long as possible. I am now an adult and have my own household to keep up with so its nice to not have to worry about things like dishes.

Going back to the town where I spent 4 prominent years of my life is bittersweet. After those 48 hours, not only do the chores start, the memories start coming back. As I drive down Zoo Parkway, the 7 miles that connects my country house and civilization, I am constantly reminded of things from my past. The small town of Asheboro is where I found my first love, my best friends, my faith. However I have changed so much since I last "lived" there and when I return, its like visiting movie sets where my life took place but no longer needed for my life's scenes currently. Along with the sets not being the same, the people are no longer there, so its not even close to being the place I once called home.

Everyone says home is where the heart is but what if you don't know where your heart is?

Thursday, September 3, 2009

My Country House

So I came to Asheboro last night for a couple of reasons. The main reason is that I have strep throat and I didn't like sitting in my apartment by myself all day. Also I was planning on coming home this weekend since I had time off from work and just wanted to relax for a few days. So now I am on my parents' couch with my dog and cat to keep me company which makes a lot of difference than being in my bed in Raleigh. And of course since I have been in here I feel 10 times better, the moment I am taken care of, the moment I am all better.

Anyways I have now come to the conclusion that Asheboro isn't so bad. Well at least the house I spent my high school years isn't so bad. I now call it my country house because its once place I can come to and be completely comfortable and worry free. In this house where I used to be yelled at for not picking up my things, doing the dishes, or not cleaning my room, I can now lay on the couch all day and not feel guilty about anything because this is now where I come to relax. I really appreciate this house now. My parents already have to make dinner for themselves so whats one more mouth to feed. And since caller id is conveniently on my phone, I can choose when I want to be bothered.

Now you may say my life isn't crazy/busy enough to need a country house but I believe everyone needs a place where they can just recharge and be worry free for a few days. Its good for you!